Have been home for almost two weeks. Gonna go back in about 2 days....have not packed yet. When I looked at those newly purchased stuff, my mind was whispering “I contribute a lot to follow the policy of increasing the internal demand" I have to admit, even with relatively unhealthy air, less in style fashion, unprofessional sale services, up till now this week is so overwhelmed with laughing, happiness that other bad memories are just nothing for me. From the moment i was waiting for my flight to Beijing, the funny story begins. I met a girl who also thought I might be a person worth talking with. So we smiled and chatted at the same time. Then I was unbelievably amazed since her seat was just beside me. I have to confess i do not believe there is a mysterious highness somewhere manipulating our human being's life but after this I am not quite sure about the point. She is also the first 90+ I met, which was demonized by Chinese media as a generation with overly open mind but lack of self-reflection. However that girl overturns the unfair judgment by her dashing manners and smartness. I feel like we are both the type that lean to dig out the answers to some profound questions by thinking, while for some topics like what your favorite career will be may only be unveiled by earning your life. Through the 13 hour flight we talked from career goal to existence of destiny. I am amazed that I share the same opinions with this much younger girl in many ways. Is this a hint of my immaturity or should I be happy for my forever-young mind, which is another question that I am a little tired to think about.

Yeah, I do not have time now. so busy being happy and spending the time in the most sweet way--with parents, folks, friends (though most of them can only be connected by phone, email, msn). Like the lyric said, everyday here can be regarded as a celebration. I love my home. I do miss my parents. After being away for six years, I am more eager than anytime to feel the family atmosphere. Embraced by this unconditional love, you become free to show yourself, open your heart and cannot expect more. Finally, all I can do is nodding my head to the motto ''happiness is simple''. Yeah, no matter how complicated you make your life to be to pursue that apex in your heart, you always need relax and take a breath before you go on the arduous road. At this moment, home is always a right place. If the intention of life is chasing happiness I should extend this vacation eternally. However, that happiness is not enough. Enormous happiness can only be achieved in the price of enormous devotion. If it is not because of the leaving, we may never this cherish the time together. Because we are all fighting hard today, tomorrow it is more probable that we will be together in a better environment....Thank you my dear parents for your love, giving me the courage to find the break of the dawn.

Anyway, be so happy that I am back and feel a little bit sad to leave again on New Year’s Day. But I am ready for the new fight. It is not only for glory anymore but also for my beloved.

I have a little doubt about myself. I do not know what is happening here. It seems when you become needy in feeling, your sorrow is not far away. So what should I do, being more independent? Declare in front of the world like in some songs that I do not need anyone to prove my value. It occurs to be a silly pic for me….

Seems I have some guys who act like friends, they just suddenly become cruel once they get your trust. I do not know what or who to blame…I just feel speechless whenever you ask them a favor and your feedback is how you would pay for that (buddy, it is really not a funny joke).I also feel a little sorry when they can always disappear when you need them to share the happiness and sorrow, and I do surprised when they always show up quickly whenever they want to take advantage of you with those openings like “you know, we are friends…..” I really do not know that….but what I do know is I want to kick your ass!

And for those guys once giving me the forever-promises, I should still say thank you, since the beautiful lies can still make me happy for a while, even with the price of succeeding pain. And I also learned to protect myself from believing new lies even if they are more believable.

I think sometimes I really want to scream… want to abandon this world.

Or maybe I should have more confidence to people; at least I still have a lot of good friends and people who do care for me. It is still soooo great to have you….

Well, present the background music from Jay Zhou. The song has the power to bring your puzzles and all the messing feelings far far away, which is what I want right now.

规则：（十分复杂）
1.被点到名字的要在自己的日志里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个问题，再加上一个问题，仍然组成 8个问题，传给其他8个人，列出8个需要回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的空间里留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
2.这8个人要在自己的日志里注明是从哪里接到题的，并且再想一个题目传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将得到大家的祝福，并且所有的美丽愿望都会在不久的以后实现。
这是博客里流行的击鼓传花游戏，传给谁谁就得接着，否则就得挨罚，请认真对待，不要怕暴露隐私．

 第一个问题：喜欢晴天，雨天还是雪天？为什么？
     晴天且没雨没雪，物以稀为贵
 第二个问题：在你最不开心的时候你会怎样?
     一个人呆着
 第三个问题:对我说一句话吧？
    啥？
 第四个问题：你有明知道自己做不到却还是想去做的事吗？是什么？
    有，当演员
 第五个问题：你最讨厌什么样的人？
     喜欢利用别人的人
 第六个问题：你现在喜欢谁？
     看我blog照片吧
 第七个问题：你理想的另一半是什么样的？
     善解人意
 第八个问题：你认为什么样才算成功?
     这个问题最好，哈哈，我认为将自己的兴趣变为职业并得到某种程度的社会认可，这就是成功的，并且是幸福的。

把第三个问题改为：：当自己在做不那么喜欢但是必须去做的事情的时候，遇到困难该怎么办？？

点名：EMO，Bing，Echo，Rockswell，Campper，Huan, Kangjiachen, Ting